Sleepless nights~

Another sleepless night...this time I was listening to the rain fall outside my window. Why can't I sleep these days?

I was thinking about my very good friend, F. I've been friends with F since we were 15 years old. We've def. been through some ups and downs. She's been there for me through out all the difficult times that I've had to face, she was there when mum was sick during high school, she was there listening to my problems through out the S-phase, the P-phase and the M-phase. She was even there to see me off when I came to Japan.

But I'm a terrible friend...Last year when I went home she was away with her colleague. On the day she came back from Europe she wanted to meet up with me and V. But I was so rude to her, I told her I've made plans already and that I couldn't see her. She sounded really upset and hurt and just didn't understand why I didn't want to see her. Thinking back now I think I was being very selfish, and for that I apologise. Girls can be so mean and bitchy.

If there was some way, I'd like to take it all back. I'd love to see her and chat to her and hear what she's been up to. I miss my girlfriends. You're never whole without friends in your life...

So, to my dearest friend on your birthday, I'm thinking of you...
Sunshine, today's your birthday, I wish you all the love, laughter and happiness in the world. I do miss you, and I am truely sorry for what I did last year. I love you babes. Happy birthday. xoxo