If you had one wish what will it be? I was sitting with my studetnts having school lunch and they were saying if they had one wish, it would be for time to stop. The kids are so flat out lately that 24hours are not enough for them.

If I had one wish what will it be? Right now, I don't know. I'm so confused and torn between the idea of going home, or otherwise staying in Japan for another year. I thought I was ready and have sort of semi-made up my mind about leaving in July next year. But, right now, I'm not too sure...

I've been having anxiety attacks lately. Friends in Japan have asked me over and over again not to go back home, but Australia is my home in the end. My family and friends are there. My students have asked me not to go back to Australia. They said they need me. A converstaion which took place on Wednesday goes like this...

Mami (yr6 student + dance group member) "Vicky sensei, will you be in Sakura dance group next year?"
Vicky "Yeah, I will, until July next year."
Mami "oh, so you'll go back to Sydney?"
Vicky " Yeah, I'm going back to Sydney in July."
Mami "But you'll come back on Tuesdays and Thursdays when we have practice right?"
Vicky "Um...I don't think so, it'll be very expensive."
Mami "oh ok, then you'll be back when we have to perform right?"
Vicky "Mami, I don't think so...I don't think I can come back to Mizukami just for dancing..."

Broke my heart, sweet girl. They're all sweet like that. I don't think they get the concept of someone leaving...for good. Then received a mail from one of the ladies that I went on a trip with, and she wrote, we have to go on another trip before you leave to go back to Australia.

The problem is...do I want to go back to Australia? I'm confused???

If you had a guy that you liked, what do you do?
Do you sit and wait for something to happen?
Do you call him?
Do you message him?
Do you do something about it?
...even when you know nothing will come out of it
...even when all the odds are against it
...even when you know full well, that the two of you are from different sides of the world, from different circles of life.
So confused. I think I'm just causing trouble for myself...need some drama in my life or something, thus this stupid fantasy romance thing that I've conjured up in my mind. Wahey~