One Flaw In Women...

By the time the Lord made woman,
He was into his sixth day of working overtime.
An angel appeared and said,
"Why are you spending so much time on this one?"
And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her?
She has to be completely washable, but not plastic,
have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable
and able to run on diet coke and leftovers,
have a lap that can hold four children at one time,
have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart
-and she will do everything
with only two hands."

The angel was astounded at the requirements.
"Only two hands!? No way!
And that's just on the standard model?
That's too much work for one day.
Wait until tomorrow to finish."

But I won't," the Lord protested.
"I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart.
She already heals herself when she is sick
AND can work 18 hour days."

The angel moved closer and touched the woman.
"But you have made her so soft, Lord."

"She is soft," the Lord agreed,
"but I have also made her tough.
You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish."

"Will she be able to think?", asked the angel.

The Lord replied,
"Not only will she be able to think,
she will be able to reason and negotiate."

The angel then noticed something,
and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek.
"Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model.
I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one."

"That's not a leak,"
the Lord corrected,
"that's a tear!"
"What's the tear for?" the angel asked.

The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy,
her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love,
her loneliness, her grief and her pride."
The angel was impressed.
"You are a genius, Lord.
You thought of everything!
Woman is truly amazing."

And she is!
Women have strengths that amaze men.
They bear hardships and they carry burdens,
but they hold happiness,
love and joy.
They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy
and laugh when they are nervous.
They fight for what they believe in.
They stand up to injustice.
They don't take "no" for an answer
when they believe there is a better solution.
They go without so their family can have.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally.
They cry when their children excel
and cheer when their friends get awards.
They are happy when they hear about
a birth or a wedding.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They grieve at the loss of a family member,
yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.
They know that a hug and a kiss
can heal a broken heart.
Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.
They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you
to show how much they care about you.
The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning.
They bring joy, hope and love.
They have compassion and ideals.
They give moral support to their family and friends.
Women have vital things to say and everything to give.
HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN,
IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH.

To all the great women out there...Believe in yourself and your worth ^_^

Kuma-gun family 2005-2006 

I told you we had KFC! Niki couldn't get enough of it ^_= 

what a feast! 

Thanksgiving Dinner 23rd Nov.

I had my first ever Thanksgiving Dinner in my whole entire life last night. I don't really know why there is a Thanksgiving? To show my ignorance I'm going to say it's something about Native Indians, pilgrams and it DEFINITELY has something to do with Turkeys ^_=
Well, our little gun put on quite a feast last night, we all made an effort to bring something, and put together a great dinner. Our "Turkey" was from KFC, not really a turkey, but it's still a bird :)

Things are going much better now. No more heartaches, headaches, or any aches...except that I am SO sleepy...All the time. I feel like I have to be in bed all the time or otherwise I will faint >_< Not good at all. Winter, why can't we be like the bears and hibernate during the cold season?!

I received an email from a very, very special person the other day. He was expressing his concerns about me and about my previous problems. He wrote and I think it's so very true ...
"...life is always throwing us curve balls which get us bamboozled from time to time, but life is like that. Often times when we think that our journey is chartered something comes along and knocks us off course. Those things happen at all stages in our life. Sometimes it is for the better, sometimes not, but we learn to manage and roll with the punches..."

At different times in life we'll always receive an unexpected email from an unexpected friend that will mean the world and make our day. These couple of days has been like that. I am ever so lucky to have great friends in my life.

Funny how feelings and emotions can just come and go...I spoke to a few friends about my feelings and now I'm fine. ^^" Back to my normal self again.
When those down phases cross your path, you really just have to face it and deal with it. In the end, it is you who chooses your own path, and lead your own life.
I can choose to be happy, or I can choose to be miserable and let something so insignificant hurt me and bother me. Therefore, I have chosen to let it go.
Silly really, because we all need to move on. I will not settle for second best, nor will I choose to be second best.

On another note, I have a BRAND NEW CAR!!! Yep, yep, my town has provided me with yet another brand new car. It's silver and when I got it yesterday it only had 15km on it and the plastic was still over the seat covers. Ha!~ so excited :)

Can't believe it's the weekend again. Days just seem to go by in a flash. It'll be the end of the year soon...what will my new year's resolution be for 2006?

Happy times. Lisa, Derek, Elsa and Vicky 

Vicky and the Groom ^^" 

After a while...

After a while you learn
the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn that love doesn't mean possession
and company doesn't mean security.
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises
and you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of an adult not the grief of a child.
And you learn to build your roads today
because tomorrows ground is too uncertain for plans
and futures have ways of falling down in mid-flight.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns
if you get too much
so you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure
that you really are strong
and you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn...

Veronica A. Shoffstall

I'm Back~

I'm back!!! From a short trip to Taiwan to see my beautiful cousin Celeste get married to a wonderful guy. The wedding was magnificent. She was so pretty, just like a princess. I had an amazing time, catching up with family and friends, and especially my sister. I miss them so much already. My little nephew Derek (cousin's son) he's so adorable, I love him so much...He's the sweetest 4 year old I've ever met. Photos will be posted later.
My other cousin Johnny (SUFFA) is releasing an album in Taiwan with a group named MACHI. Johnny's amazing, finally achieving his dream and goal. I wish him every success.
Came home to an empty house yesterday, mixed feelings when I walked into my house. The feeling of peace and quiet (really missed that when I was in Taiwan) but at the same time, lonliness...After spending a week with family constantly around and talking it was definitely very quiet.
I want to write more about my time in Taiwan but there's something else that's more pressing in my mind.
MB is seeing somebody. It was such a conicidence that I asked him about it when he emailed me the previous day to tell me about it. Guess we're telepathetic (telepathic). To hear that the person you love (loved? - I don't think it's past tense) is seeing somebody it hurts...of course it does, but there's no need for apologies because what's done is done. Do I love him? Yes, I do. Do I miss him, very much so. But, circumstances does not allow it to be. I can't breathe...it's suffocating. Have I gotten over him? In a way I have, but in a way there's always that idea of "what if..." but we can't live life thinking about the "what ifs". Oh my god...I need a hug, I need someone to say that everything will be alright, I want to scream and let out all the furstration...and maybe then I will be ok. I want to hibernate and wait for spring to come.
When I was in Taiwan the main question that was directed at me was..."so, when are you getting married?" Then I would reply that I don't have a boyfriend, and then they'll say "What!! You've broken up with your boyfriend again?" It's not like I've had plenty..and it was never me who initiates these breakups.
Spoke to mum last night and she said that my daddy was wondering when it's his turn to hold his grandchild. Sorry daddy, not for a while yet.
Well, back to Mizukami. It's so cold in Japan. I'm lonely.

Our dance's final pose...don't we look good ^_^ 

If you had one wish what will it be? I was sitting with my studetnts having school lunch and they were saying if they had one wish, it would be for time to stop. The kids are so flat out lately that 24hours are not enough for them.

If I had one wish what will it be? Right now, I don't know. I'm so confused and torn between the idea of going home, or otherwise staying in Japan for another year. I thought I was ready and have sort of semi-made up my mind about leaving in July next year. But, right now, I'm not too sure...

I've been having anxiety attacks lately. Friends in Japan have asked me over and over again not to go back home, but Australia is my home in the end. My family and friends are there. My students have asked me not to go back to Australia. They said they need me. A converstaion which took place on Wednesday goes like this...

Mami (yr6 student + dance group member) "Vicky sensei, will you be in Sakura dance group next year?"
Vicky "Yeah, I will, until July next year."
Mami "oh, so you'll go back to Sydney?"
Vicky " Yeah, I'm going back to Sydney in July."
Mami "But you'll come back on Tuesdays and Thursdays when we have practice right?"
Vicky "Um...I don't think so, it'll be very expensive."
Mami "oh ok, then you'll be back when we have to perform right?"
Vicky "Mami, I don't think so...I don't think I can come back to Mizukami just for dancing..."

Broke my heart, sweet girl. They're all sweet like that. I don't think they get the concept of someone leaving...for good. Then received a mail from one of the ladies that I went on a trip with, and she wrote, we have to go on another trip before you leave to go back to Australia.

The problem is...do I want to go back to Australia? I'm confused???

If you had a guy that you liked, what do you do?
Do you sit and wait for something to happen?
Do you call him?
Do you message him?
Do you do something about it?
...even when you know nothing will come out of it
...even when all the odds are against it
...even when you know full well, that the two of you are from different sides of the world, from different circles of life.
So confused. I think I'm just causing trouble for myself...need some drama in my life or something, thus this stupid fantasy romance thing that I've conjured up in my mind. Wahey~

Shooting Star ****

I saw my first shooting star on Halloween. It was amazing. I was with Ayami. We were coming home after getting a horror movie (to match the Halloween theme) and dinner. We were walking to my house and we were looking up at the sky because it was such a beautiful clear night, and then all of a sudden, there it was...the shooting star, crossing the dark, night sky. So romantic. We've decided to go sky watching on New Years Day :) It will be freezing, but fun nonetheless.

Am heading to Taiwan next Wednesday. My cousin, Celeste is getting married. Can't wait, can't wait. Will only be back for a week, but still I get to see family.

It's so cold in Mizukami.