I'm a human with many faults and mistakes. I let my emotions take over me and I end up doing things that I regret later on, eg. emailing ex-boyfriends with stupid messages. Why am I like this? I don't even feel anything for him? I let my heart rule my head, and I let my head rule my hands and fingers...and then they rule my cell phone.
Is it jealousy? No, not really. I'm so angry with myself. I'm happy doing my thing and living my life, but it's when those haunted past just suddenly reappears into my life, then everything goes out of control, even for a split second.
I was thinking the other night about all that's happened in the past. There are so many skeletons in my closet, I wonder whether I'd be able to let them out one day. I'm certainly not a saint and I've certainly done things to hurt people I care about. I've been feeling suffocated lately, I have to tell myself how to breathe...what is wrong with me?
Still haven't signed my papers for next year. What am I doing with my life?
So many questions...but I can't answer any.