The weather is too beautiful to be stuck at work today(>_<)
If I had the day off today, I'd imagine myself taking a nice drive down to the beach. With nice breeze, sun shining down on me, and some great CDs that I can sing along to as I take to the open roads of the country side. Weather like this always reminds me of the song by U2 "...It's a beautiful day..."
I don't want to leave Japan (T_T) not just yet...
Monday, February 27, 2006
Thursday, February 23, 2006
And she lives!!! Ding-a-ling-ling, I'm back from China. Had a great time wandering around the old world, Xi'An. Here are some of the things that I noticed when I was there...
*When we were on our way to see the Terracotta Warriors, I saw so many hitch hikers along the expressway. First of all, how did they get there? and where are they going?
*Xi'An is not on the list as one of the fastest growing cities in China, but the differences between the rich and the poor is so noticeable, it's quite heart breaking to see. On one side of the road there are sky scrapers, yet on the other side there are houses which is only half standing but with people still living in it.
*Felt quite upset when I was there. People in China are so rude and obnoxious. Once again the feeling that China will be holding the 2008 Olympics seems so surreal. They really have to pull their act together. Especially the hospitatlity people at airports, hotels and restaurants. They think they're better than the customers?! Unbelievable!!!
*Terracotta Warriors were magnificent. It's one of those things that you really have to go see it to believe it. It's huge, with sooo many soldiers lined up, there are still lots left to be unearthed.
But the price they sell the replicas for are so expensive!
*The Japanese lovessssssssss to shop. They bought everything that was offered to them. It was amazing. Yet, they still managed to fit everything into their little suitcase.
*I don't think I'm a shy person, but in front of that one particular person that went on the trip as well, I was so nervous. I lost all my Japanese ability...why is that? On the last leg of the trip home, we managed to sit next to each other. It was actually quite nerve wrecking. So, since the plane wasn't filled up, I ended up moving. So shy. *sigh* Haven't had a crush on a guy in such a long time, but as long as we're friends, guess that's enough.
*My next trip is to Tokyo Disneyland!!! Yay, can't wait :)
*When we were on our way to see the Terracotta Warriors, I saw so many hitch hikers along the expressway. First of all, how did they get there? and where are they going?
*Xi'An is not on the list as one of the fastest growing cities in China, but the differences between the rich and the poor is so noticeable, it's quite heart breaking to see. On one side of the road there are sky scrapers, yet on the other side there are houses which is only half standing but with people still living in it.
*Felt quite upset when I was there. People in China are so rude and obnoxious. Once again the feeling that China will be holding the 2008 Olympics seems so surreal. They really have to pull their act together. Especially the hospitatlity people at airports, hotels and restaurants. They think they're better than the customers?! Unbelievable!!!
*Terracotta Warriors were magnificent. It's one of those things that you really have to go see it to believe it. It's huge, with sooo many soldiers lined up, there are still lots left to be unearthed.
But the price they sell the replicas for are so expensive!
*The Japanese lovessssssssss to shop. They bought everything that was offered to them. It was amazing. Yet, they still managed to fit everything into their little suitcase.
*I don't think I'm a shy person, but in front of that one particular person that went on the trip as well, I was so nervous. I lost all my Japanese ability...why is that? On the last leg of the trip home, we managed to sit next to each other. It was actually quite nerve wrecking. So, since the plane wasn't filled up, I ended up moving. So shy. *sigh* Haven't had a crush on a guy in such a long time, but as long as we're friends, guess that's enough.
*My next trip is to Tokyo Disneyland!!! Yay, can't wait :)
Friday, February 17, 2006
Can ex's stay as friends??? That's the question I'm posing today.
It's tricky. How can one not let one's emotions and feelings come into the picture when talking to an ex. For example, if the ex has a new partner in their life, how can you restrain that green-eye monster that lurks inside your head from revealing its ugly head?! Why do we even have that green-eye monster within us? Do we even care that there is someone replacing the spot that we had in their life because we still love him/her? or is it just human nature to feel that they've moved on?
I don't know? I don't know alot of things about love. It just bugs me to feel the feelings that I'm feeling, when I don't even have feelings for my previous luv. Ah, Vicky, don't sweat the little things in life.
Heading to China tomorrow...woohoo~going to see the Terracotta Warriors, something that's always be on my list to do before I die. So, yep, can cross that one off. Yatta!!! Anyways, have a great weekend. Be well (^^)v
It's tricky. How can one not let one's emotions and feelings come into the picture when talking to an ex. For example, if the ex has a new partner in their life, how can you restrain that green-eye monster that lurks inside your head from revealing its ugly head?! Why do we even have that green-eye monster within us? Do we even care that there is someone replacing the spot that we had in their life because we still love him/her? or is it just human nature to feel that they've moved on?
I don't know? I don't know alot of things about love. It just bugs me to feel the feelings that I'm feeling, when I don't even have feelings for my previous luv. Ah, Vicky, don't sweat the little things in life.
Heading to China tomorrow...woohoo~going to see the Terracotta Warriors, something that's always be on my list to do before I die. So, yep, can cross that one off. Yatta!!! Anyways, have a great weekend. Be well (^^)v
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
Decision's made!!! I'm going home. I handed in my papers to my supervisor and met all the disappointed looks yesterday because I wasn't staying. It broke my heart, and I just didn't know what to say. I lost all my Japanese language abilities and all I could utter was I'm sorry. It really wasn't about not loving the town and not wanting to stay here, but I am ready for a new chapter in my life. My big boss joked around and said that they'd just white out my answer and make me stay...but we all know that can't happen. So, it'll be another six months here before I head home.
Six months...So much to do in this six months, and so much to take care of. But, thinking on the positive side of things, there are still six months, so I will make the most out of it.
Don't have the heart to tell my Japanese friends yet...breathe in, breathe out. I'll have to tell them sooner or later. Told my students though, they were shocked. They even asked if I was going to go back to Australia forever? Gee...I've become a part of this community, they actually don't see me as the foreigner anymore. Good to know, but it's just going to be so hard to let go.
Now, I have to think about what I want to do when I go home. Friends from home have been so supportive and beautiful. Yes, sunshine, it is not a crime for us to take it slow in life and just go with the flow and rest a while. After all, I do believe everything happens for a reason and that it'll all work out for the best afterall. (^_^)
Six months...So much to do in this six months, and so much to take care of. But, thinking on the positive side of things, there are still six months, so I will make the most out of it.
Don't have the heart to tell my Japanese friends yet...breathe in, breathe out. I'll have to tell them sooner or later. Told my students though, they were shocked. They even asked if I was going to go back to Australia forever? Gee...I've become a part of this community, they actually don't see me as the foreigner anymore. Good to know, but it's just going to be so hard to let go.
Now, I have to think about what I want to do when I go home. Friends from home have been so supportive and beautiful. Yes, sunshine, it is not a crime for us to take it slow in life and just go with the flow and rest a while. After all, I do believe everything happens for a reason and that it'll all work out for the best afterall. (^_^)
Friday, February 03, 2006
I'm a human with many faults and mistakes. I let my emotions take over me and I end up doing things that I regret later on, eg. emailing ex-boyfriends with stupid messages. Why am I like this? I don't even feel anything for him? I let my heart rule my head, and I let my head rule my hands and fingers...and then they rule my cell phone.
Is it jealousy? No, not really. I'm so angry with myself. I'm happy doing my thing and living my life, but it's when those haunted past just suddenly reappears into my life, then everything goes out of control, even for a split second.
I was thinking the other night about all that's happened in the past. There are so many skeletons in my closet, I wonder whether I'd be able to let them out one day. I'm certainly not a saint and I've certainly done things to hurt people I care about. I've been feeling suffocated lately, I have to tell myself how to breathe...what is wrong with me?
Still haven't signed my papers for next year. What am I doing with my life?
So many questions...but I can't answer any.
Is it jealousy? No, not really. I'm so angry with myself. I'm happy doing my thing and living my life, but it's when those haunted past just suddenly reappears into my life, then everything goes out of control, even for a split second.
I was thinking the other night about all that's happened in the past. There are so many skeletons in my closet, I wonder whether I'd be able to let them out one day. I'm certainly not a saint and I've certainly done things to hurt people I care about. I've been feeling suffocated lately, I have to tell myself how to breathe...what is wrong with me?
Still haven't signed my papers for next year. What am I doing with my life?
So many questions...but I can't answer any.
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