一千遍我愛你

就算輕輕的呼吸心還是感覺痛
沒有你的日子裡我變的好脆弱
輕輕一碰　彷彿就要飛走　耶～

口袋裡的雙手曾被你溫柔緊握
佈滿思念的空氣該怎麼去擺脫
天灰的好寂寞　快樂悲傷被你左右

說一千遍我愛你也都還不夠
就這樣不貪心　我慢慢的走
只要有你陪著我　再苦我能承受 (再苦也承受)

說一千遍我愛你也都還不夠
有一天我總會看見幸福的彩虹
相信你給的承諾　我等候

生命中不可承受的輕

讓耳機　循環這頻率
反覆超重低音　震動著寧靜
擋風玻璃裏　愛成了蒙太奇
我　哼著我自己　的歎息

只是愛與被愛的比例
不是愛或不愛的問題
如果明天還有好天氣　都已經跟你沒關係

你讓我夢見了太美的夢　生命中不可承受的輕
你　證明了每一顆流星　都遙不可及
你因為了我每個所以　所以了這一百年孤寂
你　灑下默默無言的雨　一滴
一滴一滴一滴滴　遺忘的淚滴

偶陣雨　偶爾會天晴
還好星光熠熠　好心的提醒
一個人追尋　一個人的和平
我　看見我自己　的天際

愛真的需要一點勇氣
就看我們敢不敢忘記
我和彩虹最短的直徑　也不一定沒有你不行

就讓我狠狠的加速前進　脫離你所給我的夢境
再　零點零零一公釐　就可以清醒
我決定不再等你決定　我決定不再當局者迷
我決定屬於我自己的黎明
距離你一世紀　下一個世紀

Betty and Vicky@Green Box Plus

Life

Can't believe it's the end of the year soon. Days just passes by so quickly these days. Everyday is a great adventure. You have to live life to love life. There are too many pressure and stress that surrounds everyone, you just have to take it all in and BREATHE! At the end of the day, you have to live with yourself and your decisions. So the most important person to please is yourself.

會呼吸的痛

在東京鐵塔 第一次眺望
看燈火模仿 墜落的星光
我終於到達 但卻更悲傷
一個人完成 我們的夢想

你總說 時間還很多 你可以等我
以前我不懂得 未必明天 就有以後

想念是會呼吸的痛 它活在我身上所有角落
哼你愛的歌會痛 看你的信會痛 連沈默也痛

遺憾是會呼吸的痛 它流在血液中來回滾動
後悔不貼心會痛 恨不懂你會痛 想見不能見最痛

沒看你臉上 張揚過哀傷
那是種多麼 寂寞的倔強
你拆了城牆 讓我去流浪
在原地等我 把自己綑綁

你沒說 你也會軟弱 需要倚賴我
我就裝不曉得 自由移動 自我地過

想念是會呼吸的痛 它活在我身上所有角落
哼你愛的歌會痛 看你的信會痛 連沈默也痛

遺憾是會呼吸的痛 它流在血液中來回滾動
後悔不貼心會痛 恨不懂你會痛 想見不能見最痛

我發誓不再說謊了 多愛你就會抱你多緊的
我的微笑都假了 靈魂像飄浮著 你在就好了

我發誓不讓你等候 陪你做想做的無論什麼
我越來越像貝殼 怕心被人觸碰 你回來那就好了

能重來那就好了

go away tummy bug (T_T)

Stuck at home this weekend. Came down with a tummy bug on Fri at school. All of a sudden there was this gut wrenching pain in my tummy :( How fragil are humans. We can be knocked out at any given moment. So treasure your health dear friends.
Thus, my weekend was/is a bore. Missed out on our ritual weekly coffee/bitch session with gals from work. Missed out on dinner function with Aiden's mum and meeting Mr. First Aide. Missed out on AF's bday drinks...wah~~~(T_T) I hate being sick.
I need magic pills to help me get better soon...but I did go shopping for bella's pressie. Also bought things for myself. LOL...bit early for chrissy n birthday present to self, but still...it's my treat for being sick :p
Bought a book..."He's Just Not That Into You" ~ Famous line from SATC. Happy reading :)

(^__^)

"... ~ in good times and bad times, I'll be on your side forever more...that's what friends are for..."

Last weekend...

It was a busy one. Friday after school, went out to Olympic Park with Ella, Penne and Ange to buy some books at the Scholastic booksale. It was such a bargain! Picked up soooooo many picture books and some novels for only $60. Well worth the trip. Found my favourite picture book..."The Dot"~Picture book teaches the installs the best values into kids when they are little. And "The Dot" does an excellent job of it.

Then headed into the city to meet up with friends at Privvy. It's been such a long time since I last saw T. I think we had a communication break down over the last couple of weeks...but it's now sorted (well, I hope anyways...) but it was just so nice to see him. Even through it all I can say that I luv him...I can truly call him my decade long old friend...Also saw lots of other boyz n galz that I absolutely adore~
Friends are really important...the new, the old and the forgotten.

Saturday was also another busy one. Had to work on Sat. substituting at Ming-Der Chinese School. Took a kindy class with another teacher. There were so many kids in that class. But they were so cute...one lil boy was so fond of him, he was literally hanging off my leg. Then he kept on calling my name in class and telling me to sit next to him. It's times like that where my job is soooo satisfying...lol. To be needed and loved by lil people.

Harn Harn's "surprise" farewell dinner was also on Saturday. He's going back to Singapore. It's so hard to say goodbye to friends. We had a blast, it will be a nite that won't be forgotten :)

Sunday, saw me up and early (yet again...)headed to Bondi to meet up with Stace, M&N, the twins and teddybear. We went to Sculpture by the Sea 2007. It was AMAZING. The ocean and the sky were so blue. We need to appreciate our environment and take care of the nature that we live in...because one day soon it'll all be history, just like us. How can we be so good at technology, inventing new machineries and gadgets. Yet we can't even learn to recycle...or use less power, water or electricity. Many things to ponder about when there's the beautiful ocean in front of you, and the clean air that clears your mind.
The sculptures itselves were also works of art (literally)...I loved it.

It was such an incredible weekend.

lil kids

I love little kids. They can give you the best compliments and make you laugh on your worst day.
Innocence...

let go~

Once you voice it out aloud...it's not that hard to let go anymore :)
I am ok.

Thinking

Today I'm missing all my friends from abroad.
The friends I've made whilst I was overseas, and those friends who have chosen to follow their dreams and take on their adventures overseas.
The great thing about Facebook is that not only can you keep in touch with friends from overseas, but you can also be reunited with friends that you haven't seen in so many years. Not that you didn't want to keep in touch with them, but the fact of the matter is that people's lives change, and it's that much harder to keep in contact these days. We all try our best to please one another, to make time for one another. But I guess there are priorities in life which means that sometimes one thing might out weigh the other.

Over the weekend, I went to Nan Tien Temple to help out with a conference. Venerable Master Hsin Yun also attended this conference. It was such an honour to see him and to hear his guidance and views regarding Buddhism. He has this aura that makes all those around him want to become a better person. It was such an overwhelming feeling and experience.
At one point of the day we were all gathered in the Main Shrine. There Master Hsin Yun asked everyone to recite the Heart Sutra in praying for world peace. The belief was so powerful that I felt, maybe just maybe...we can make a difference in this world. If everyone just puts in that extra bit...to better themselves in order to better those around you. You can't change the world, but you can definitely change yourself.
Do good deeds. Think good thoughts. Have a good heart.

busy times...

It's been a month and nearly two weeks since my last confession..lol. No, since I've been back from Japan. Getting back into the swing of things already. School's been great. I love the Kindy class I'm teaching now. A little girl accidentally called me "mum" by mistake today. so cute. But I do feel like I'm their second mum in a way. I look after them for 7hrs, 5days a week. Another boy also commented on how he thinks I'm a good teacher. Bless these innocent kids...(^_^)

Friends...been meeting some great new friends lately. They're fun and easy to hang out with. Weekends are great coz I'm able to stay over at my sis' house. The benefits of having an older sibling in the city. I've seen some of my old friends, but alot of them haven't been able to meet up due to circumstances...guess that's the way life becomes once you're married (>o<) Hate to say it, but it's true. Ah well, what can you do?!

I miss Japan though...aiming to go back in April 2008 for a visit...fingers crossed.

depression

How do you seek for help when you know that you're down. When you know that everyone around you wants what's best for you. But their words make you feel even worse...
what do I want in the future...I'm sinking...

The Power of FACEBOOK!!!

I have to admit...I am addicted to FACEBOOK!!!
Yes, I am sure there are plenty of you out there who can also say the same thing about yourself. It's the greatest site that's ever been invented. It's connecting long lost friends together.
Well, some might say, if you want to keep in contact with them then why would you lose contact in the first place?! That's just too cynical. I mean after the first initial years of losing contact, it's just that much harder to pick up the phone and say "hey, remember me?! I went to school/work with you. Wanna catch up?!" Whereas for the internet, it's less intrusive.
After being by myself for three years, I have come to respect and re-evaluate my take on friendships. I love my friends dearly. Old ones, new ones. Close ones, and not so close ones. To me, each and every one of them has made an impact upon my life. Sometimes we just need to take that extra step to keep a friendship. But in the end it's all worth it.
To my friends, I love you and I miss you!

Home sweet home

Back in Sydney...

My 7th Graders.

My 8th Graders.

My 9th Graders.

It's all over...
Feel like I'm finally waking up from my dream.
It was a beautiful dream...

Sad goodbye~Sayonara (T_T)

Farewell Yuyama...it was so sad saying goodbye to my 52students and all the teachers. Words can't explain the love I have for them. Many tears were shed...
I'm so glad I had the chance to meet these wonderful kids.

CHAMPIONS

Over the weekend, it was the county's sports club tournament.
Mizukami JHS has a team for baseball, softball, tennis, judo and track&field.
I went to watch my baseball boys play. They were so so so good.
All the teams they came up against were really strong teams. But they never gave up, and in the end, they WON!!! (^_^)!!
It's been 18 years since they last brought home the champion flag, so it was very exciting!! I am so proud of them (^_^)v
My softball girls also came first. Judo came second. Tennis came second and third. Track&Field also first, second, third and fourth.
My school RULZ!!!

My flight is booked, but my bags ain't packed yet.
3 weeks of school left.
Sad.
Anxious.
Excited.
My brain is filled with thoughts and memories...24 / 7.
Saying goodbye is going to be so hard.
(T_T)
Me not ready yet...

My 1st graders...

HOT

It's so so so so so HOT in Japan! There's only one word to describe it and it's HOT!!! Blah...the rainy season has not passed yet, so it's cloudy and muggy all the time. Don't feel like doing anything else except sit at home with the air-con and pack.
Yep, yep. I have started the dreaded task. No wonder I was dreading it, it's a pain in the butt.
But it gives me a chance to go through letters and cards that students and friends have written througout these years. Sometimes you need to take a break and walk down memory lane (^_^)
Only 3 1/2 weeks of school left...gya....scary stuff (>_<)

On Monday, I had my last lesson with one of my elementary school 1st and 2nd graders...at the end when I was saying my little goodbye speech and telling them to be good for the next teacher, they all started sobbing uncontrollably...It was so adorable by heart breaking. I love my kids...*sigh*

I just received an email from a friend of mine. She's getting married in July to a really great man. They will have their wedding here in Japan before flying to his home country.
Anyways, she asked me to do say "cheers" for her at the wedding. I am really honoured...wow!

It's so humid right in Japan...

Oh, I've started packing >_< It's a total bi@tch. No wonder I've left it for so long :p But better now than never.

42days to go...SCARY stuff!

Kumakawa Kudari

FINALLY!!! I went with Kim, Lindsay and Yuuki on the Kumakawa-kudari last Sunday. It was so much fun.
I'm currently loving every single day of my time in Japan.
The monsoon season's finally here. It's been raining non-stop! Though we do need the rain, it's dampen my mood.(no pun intended :p)

Hikaru

I'm taking a student back to Australia with me (^_^)
Her name's Hikaru, she's really sweet. She loves English. I actually tutored her for a whole year last year when she was in year 6. Her parents asked whether she can homestay with me, so I said yes.
She'll stay with me for 10days before coming back to Japan. It'll be fun being tourists with her, since I've been gone for three years as well, I'd like to re-visit my country and appreciate everything that we sometimes take for granted.
wooo...can't wait v(^_^)v

Down South

Over the weekend I travelled to the furthest southern point of Japan (not including Okinawa). It was such a fun weekend. Spent it with my closest and dearest friends...

TWO CHOICES

I received this from my lovely sister.

Instead of forwarding it I've decided to post it, have a read.
Have a fabulous SHAY DAY!

Two Choices

What would you do?....you make the choice. Don't look for a punch
line, there isn't one. Read it anyway. My question is: Would you have
made the same choice?

At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves learning-disabled
children, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that
would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school
and its dedicated staff, he offered a question: "When not interfered
with by outside influences, everything nature does
is done with perfection. Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as
other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do.
Where is the natural order of things in my son?"

The audience was stilled by the query.

The father continued. "I believe that when a child like Shay,
physically and mentally handicapped comes into the world, an opportunity
to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes in the way
other people treat that child"

Then he told the following story:

Shay and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew
were playing baseball. Shay asked, "Do you think they'll let me
play?" Shay's father knew that most of the boys would not want
someone like Shay on their team, but the father also understood that if
his son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of
belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his
handicaps.

Shay's father approached one of the boys on the field and asked (not
expecting much) if Shay could play. The boy looked around for guidance
and said, "We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth
inning. I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat
in the ninth inning."

Shay struggled over to the team's bench and, with a broad smile, put
on a team shirt. His Father watched with a small tear in his eye and
warmth in his heart. The boys saw the father's joy at his son being
accepted. In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few
runs but was still behind by three In the top of the ninth inning, Shay
put on a glove and played
in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was
obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning
from ear to ear as his father waved to him from the stands. In the
bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again.. Now, with two
outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and
Shay was scheduled to be next at bat.

At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to
win the game? Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a
hit was all but impossible because Shay didn't even know how to hold the
bat properly, much less connect with the ball.

However, as
Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing that the other
team was putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved in
a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least make
contact. The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed.
The
pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards
Shay. As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground
ball right back to the pitcher.

The game would now be over. The pitcher picked up the soft grounder
and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman. Shay would
have been out and that would have been the end of the game.

Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the first baseman's
head, out of reach of all team mates. Everyone from the stands and both
teams started yelling, "Shay, run to first! Run to first!" Never in his
life had Shay ever run that far, but he made it to first base. He
scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and
startled.

Everyone yelled, "Run to second, run to second!" Catching his breath,
Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to
the base. By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right
fielder had the ball ... the smallest guy on their team who now had his
first chance to be the hero for his team. He could have thrown the ball
to the second-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's
intentions so he, too, intentionally threw the ball high and far over
the third-baseman's head. Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the
runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home.

All were screaming, "Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay"

Shay reached third base because the opposing shortstop ran to help
him by turning him in the direction of third base, and shouted, "Run to
third! Shay, run to third!"

As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams, and the spectators,
were on their feet screaming, "Shay, run home! Run home!" Shay ran to
home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the
grand slam and won the game for his team.

"That day", said the father softly with tears now rolling down his
face, "the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and
humanity into this world".

Shay didn't make it to another summer. He died that winter, having
never forgotten being the hero and making his father so happy, and
coming home and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of
the day!

AND NOW A LITTLE FOOTNOTE TO THIS STORY: We all send thousands of
jokes through the e-mail without a second thought, but when it
comes to sending messages about life choices, people hesitate. The
crude, vulgar, and often obscene pass freely through cyberspace, but
public discussion about decency is too often suppressed in our schools
and workplaces.

If you're thinking about forwarding this message, chances are that
you're probably sorting out the people in your address book who aren't
the "appropriate" ones to receive this type of message. Well, the person
who sent you this believes that we all can make a difference. We all
have thousands of opportunities every single day to help realize the
"natural order of things." So many seemingly trivial interactions
between two people present us with a choice: Do we pass along a little
spark of love and humanity or do we pass up those opportunities and
leave the world a little bit colder in the process?

A wise man once said every society is judged by how it treats it's
least fortunate amongst them.

You now have two choices:

1. Delete

2. Forward
May your day, be a Shay Day.

who me?

(^_^) Happy (^_^)

kyaaa~

This site is cho-kawaii desu yo...(+^_~=)
Me likez it...
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soccer

There is a child at my elementary school. He is a special child, he needs to wear a helmet all the time in case he has a sudden seizure. I think he's a great kid. He is in a special class because he has learning difficulties, but when it's English time, he comes into the second grade's class. He always tries and participates when I'm teaching.
I didn't have the second grades today, but at lunch I went to the playground and met him. We played soccer today. He was quite good at it (^_~) I had to run after the ball...lol.
Although it was such a small incident, it has imprinted itself in my mind. I will miss these little events that makes such a difference.

Dance Battle 2007 - 50s Style!!
It was so much fun!!!
We came second, but it's all good ^_<

Changes...

I'm going home in two months. How fast is that?
Compare my 2years and 10months that I've been here already, 2months is nothing.
How will I cope with life back home?
Where is home? I've gotten so used to the relaxing, calm life of Mizukami will I be able to survive in the busy, hectic life of Sydney?
I am looking forward to going home though.
There comes a point in life where you just know your time is up at a certain place, and if you linger on it'll just turn sour. Just like in a bad relationship...when you know it's time to get out.
I've had an experience of a life time in my little pocket of Japan.
Where am heading to next?
What does life have in store for me?
...The question that everyone has been asking so far is what will I do when I go home? ...
The answer to that is absolutely nothing. I'm going to be a woman of leisure for a few months (one or two) before embarking on something new.
Will take few trips here and there. Visit friends and taking everything in.
I can't wait to travel Australia. My first stop South Australia...I want to visit my dear friend and her new born princess.
So many things to do...There'll definitely be plenty of changes in my life for the second half 2007.
I can't wait!

My hermit life...

I'm a hermit crab these days. I don't feel like socialising or talking to anyone or seeing anyone. Guess it's just one of those phases that you go through...or well, I go through.
There's so much on my mind right now. Mostly relating to my return home. Anxiety mixed with lonliness. There are 99days left (>.<) Not that I'm counting or anything.
I need to pack. I need to find a shipping company. I need to book my plane ticket. I need to see if I want to travel elsewhere before going home. I need to write farewell speeches. I need to prepare for the next ALT. I need to do all these plus more. But I'm not doing any of it...procrastination is my middle name.
Arghh...Vicky's a lazy bum :p

First Graders

My little ichi-nen seis, with their big suits for their little bodies. They're adorable :)

Sakura Matsuri.
I love my dance team.
They are the most energetic, vibrant and unique people I've ever met.
I cried at the end of the last song we were dancing to. (T_T)
It will be hard saying goodbye~

Yoshiko and Vicky...visiting the "Blood Onsen"

Spring Vacation. Went away to Oita - Beppu with my editor friend Yoshiko for two days one night. It was so relaxing and cheap.
Yoshiko's leaving for Tokyo on the 19th. Feels like everyone's leaving and beginning a new journey.
Looking forward to going home...

memoirs of a geisha

LoL~I am so not Zhang ZiYi...hahaha

Graduation

prediction

I predict that Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt will not last ~ reason, Angelina Jolie does not LOVE her own flesh and blood. I have never seen her holding her own daughter once in any of those gossip mags. All the pics I've seen are of Brad holding Shiloh. That's just my predicition :P

On to other news...Nothing much has been happening in the land of the rising sun. The weather's been crazy! It's back to really cold days, with strong winds. Weekend's most often than not is always raining. My 9th graders have graduated, they've also passed their High School examination as well. The girls and I will have a farewell party on Wednesday, will be fun :)

I had the opportunity to get painted and dressed in a beautiful kimono like a Maiko (apprentice geisha). It was fun! I look horrible though :p but it was def. a great Japanese experience.

Apart from that school will finish next week. Then two weeks Spring vacation...after that, 15weeks till my contract's up...wah~so fast!!

未來

It's March, it's spring, it's a new start, a new beginning...

Been feeling a bit low lately...but I can't let myself down! I need to change the way I think and do things...I can't be so weak.

I need to keep positive, I need to shine...I can't lose myself. I need a pick me up and I need to keep on going ~

這幾天一直很努力的去克服自己的想法~~不要那麼的脆弱!!

我的世界裡的陽光可以讓喜歡我的人溫暖!!

如果我因為一些小事而讓自己不在發光~~~那我連自己最後所擁有的也沒了~~

我很堅強~我也很樂觀~跌倒再爬起來繼續往前走就好啦~~

嗯嗯~~我還要用跑的ㄋ~~跌倒的這些時間已經讓我不動好幾天了!!

一定要迎頭趕上往前走的成功者~~

我來啦~~來啦~~我的未來我的夢想~~

我愛的人我關心的人我想要保護的人~~~

我必須更強壯~才能保護你們!!

" 用力的大笑一次 所有不開心的事好像也沒有那麼重要了 因為我有愛我的人在旁邊看著我 "

We R Family

My LoVeS xoxo

Mum, Dad and their little girl (^_^)

Happy Year of the PIG

Happy Chinese New Year! Gong Hei Fat Choi! Gong Xi Fa Chay!

I went back to Taiwan on Saturday - Wednesday. It was a short five days, but it was def. worth it. Mum and Dad also went back. Haven't seen them in a year and a half, it was nice to catch up. The three of us went to karaoke. Dad sang the most :) Good times.

I also saw my little niece for the first time. I love her so much. Weird how fast we bonded :p She's 10 months old, she's an angel.
Derek, my nephew. He's also a gem. So clever for a boy his age. So sensitive towards people's feelings and emotions. I'm so proud of him.
I miss those two little ones already!!!

I'm thinking of going back to TW to work...

Anxiety Attacks!!!

I couldn't log onto my yahoo and msn account today...I panicked and had an anxiety attack. I have become dependent on these means of communciations that I was at a lost when it did not work for me. What will happen if one day the internet just ceased to exist. What will become of the world we know and dependent on. I can't and I don't want to imagine.

I am loved after all :) My students gave me lots of home-made cookies and chocolates. Then in the evening I went out with three girlfriends to un-celebrate the event by having some indian curry and nan. It was def. a fun night to remember. It feels so good to laugh till it hurts with beautiful people that you can actually connect with.

I will miss my little Kuma-gun xoxo

Happy Single Awareness Day!
Valentines day is so over rated by the flower industry, chocolate industry, travel industry, jewellery industry, and all other industries that are involved! Or maybe I'm just a little bit bitter that I'm not getting anything :p
But no matter...to my darling friends...I (heart) U xoxox
(^3^)/~muah

pressure

In Japan 9th graders needs to take an exam to get into High School. Out of 21 students, 14 went and sat the pre-test. They had to write a self-PR and go through an interview with a panel. They did this last Thursday.
Today they got their results back :) Out of the 14, ten passed with flying colours. The pressure is off them now. I feel like such a proud sister. I've watched these kids grow from tiny awkward 7th graders, to proud self-assured 9th graders. I'll miss them when they graduate in 21 days.
To those 4 who failed, there's always the second test and I'm sure they will certainly pass that;) Life's all about second chances.

The weather's been strange lately! It's suppose to be really cold, but it has turned oddly warm. It's like Spring's already in the air. Heading to Taiwan next Saturday to see my family (^_^) YAY!!!

snowing today

I signed my form for next year. I will not be re-contracting for 2007-2008. Which means I will be going home in 6months.